Love Misery

The worst part about being in love is the misery, fear and grief that comes along with it. Your dependency on another person to make you happy and not knowing how to be alone. You are glad you have someone but you wish it didn't feel like your heart was anchored to the knots in your stomach. You wish you didn't have the constant fear of losing someone you care so much about. The pangs of anxiety make you question if it's all even worth it. But then you look into their eyes and feel the way they hold you and think about the way you get lost in their eyes and you want that feeling to go absolutely nowhere and stay with you forever. You obsess over your future together and get so hopeful because you know that's all you need to be happy. It's all you want, and you hope you are not crazy and hope they feel the same way.

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